Wednesday, November 30, 2011


Dear Life,

I went to the doctor today.  I have had an issue with one of my feet and needed it checked out.  Did I mention I haven't gone to the doctor in five years....since I had my last baby.  I know...I know.  It's been difficult to find the time to take care of myself because I am taking care of all these boys...

I have lost myself a bit.
A lot.
Being a caregiver of a special needs child has made me hypersensitive of my boys needs...
But I forgot mine....and I am ashamed to say on occasion my husbands as well.
(Hangs head in shame)
I realized that I needed to step it up with my marriage and my husband awhile back.  But I didn't realize how much I have let myself go until I stepped on the scale at the doctors today.


In my head I'm big...but not that big.  Talk about denial. 
I knew I needed to lose weight.  I knew clothes were fitting horribly.  I knew my back has been hurting.

But in my head I remember this:

So I must still be this thin right? 


So today was a huge wakeup call.  But I have woken up.  Boy have I woken up.

I'm starting weight watchers this week....
And getting a gym membership this week...


Tomorrow I have to get my blood drawn to check for cholesterol, diabetes and a liver panel.  I say "Bring it".  This has got to change...and I'm the only one who can change it.

From....A BIG Mom of Boys


  1. You and me both sister!! I have the same phenomenon over here...always shocked to see what I really look like. We need to stop neglecting go girl!

  2. I did WW this year and lost 40 lbs! It is an AMAZING program! Good luck with it!

  3. Hi! I am a new follower from the blog hop! Good luck with everything! Take care of you! I'm a mom of a special needs child and I ALWAYS put myself last. I keep reminding myself to not do that, but it's so hard.

  4. I'm a new follower from the Thursday Blog Hop! I'm a mom of two boys and can't imagine having as many as you! Many props to you for raising 5 handsome men! Love your blog!

  5. I already follow you but i'm stopping by to say HI from the blog hop!! Thanks for joining us :) You can do it momma!! Get healthy for yourself and your beautiful deserve it!! xoxo

  6. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I am here from the blog hop! I am going through something similar right now in regards to my weight. In fact, I just had a major breakdown yesterday over it. I don't know you and so far this is the first post I have read on your blog, but I will praying that you are able to have success on your new journey! This is the one thing that I have not been able to achieve myself...Maybe this will be the year! Good luck! Beautiful family too!

  7. Ugh, I'm with ya...the picture of me in my head does not match real pictures these days. It's definitely not fun. Good luck to you, and hopefully I'll get serious soon too!

  8. GO YOU! Sometimes we need that wakeup call (or kick in the butt) to make us realise something needs to change. And you're right, it's only you who can do it, but you're family can support you! I find it hard to get time for myself with ONE child let alone FIVE children! You sound like a battler and I believe you have the strength to do this :-) My friend did weight watchers and it worked really well for her also.
    Visiting from the hop.

  9. Let's do this SISTAH!!!!! ;) ---- and BTW..... you're still HOTTTTT !!!!!


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