I went to the doctor today. I have had an issue with one of my feet and needed it checked out. Did I mention I haven't gone to the doctor in five years....since I had my last baby. I know...I know. It's been difficult to find the time to take care of myself because I am taking care of all these boys...
I have lost myself a bit.
A lot.
Being a caregiver of a special needs child has made me hypersensitive of my boys needs...
But I forgot mine....and I am ashamed to say on occasion my husbands as well.
(Hangs head in shame)
I realized that I needed to step it up with my marriage and my husband awhile back. But I didn't realize how much I have let myself go until I stepped on the scale at the doctors today.
305.4
COME AGAIN??????
In my head I'm big...but not that big. Talk about denial.
I knew I needed to lose weight. I knew clothes were fitting horribly. I knew my back has been hurting.
But in my head I remember this:
So I must still be this thin right?
WRONG!!!
So today was a huge wakeup call. But I have woken up. Boy have I woken up.
I'm starting weight watchers this week....
And getting a gym membership this week...
NO MORE EXCUSES!
Tomorrow I have to get my blood drawn to check for cholesterol, diabetes and a liver panel. I say "Bring it". This has got to change...and I'm the only one who can change it.
From....A BIG Mom of Boys
